January 2012
35 posts
Can’t seem to get myself out of this funk.
I mean, I got what I asked for, right?
So why do I feel so down & antisocial?
It kind of feels like I’ve hit some kind of brick wall in my life, even though I have a lot of stuff I need to get a move on, like applying for jobs and other grad school programs.
I just want to curl up into a ball until my ankle is healed so I can go out...
Unhappy.
Or unsatisfied.
Either way, I don’t like myself.
I’m unmotivated, jealous, and the worst part is…
I don’t seem to really care.
=)
“So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the...”
– Into the Wild, Jon Krakauer
(as a side note, I have never agreed with a book more on the matter of life and how we should live it)
Big Day.
Heading out to Alpha Phi Omega Region X Conference for the first time - can’t wait to see what’s it’s like compared to Sectionals!
Gonna get my last LEADS Course done - that means I’ll have all five now! (Launch, Explore, Achieve, Discover & Serve, woooo!)
The 49ers have a playoff game today, hence the reason I am not decked out in my APO letter gear like I normally...
December 2011
15 posts
Time to kick it into high gear.
1 paper down. 1 more paper to go. Plus a grad school application. And 2 literary reviews.
I can get it all done tonight… right?
Can't bring myself to do any of the work I need to...
I really do work best under pressure, I guess.
Doesn’t help that I’m all packed and all that’s left for me to do are these stupid papers/reviews.
After doing an outline for each paper, I think I’ll just turn in for the night and start the actual writing tomorrow.
It’s too late for me to come up with anything good right now anyway.
G’night.
5 more days til I'm off to Germany...
… yet I still have a million & one things to do!
- Finish my Honors Review Paper - Start/Finish my Final Paper for Honors - Ditto for my Int’l Media class - Read/finish a novel, then write a review - Finish my application to the Sport Management Program - Finish my gift for Justin - Christmas cards! - Clean my room/apartment before I leave - Last minute Christmas shopping - Last...
UGH, this paper is a huge piece of SHEISSE.
Hopefully he’ll buy it, and I’ll have more time to work on it over the next few days.
Argh, why did I procrastinate so much on this?
Oh yeah.
Cuz I hate this damned class & this stupid minor.
That’s why.
Studying without glasses late into the night is...
I’ve had my contacts in for X number of days because I couldn’t find my contact case, but now that I found it and have taken my contacts out, I can’t use my glasses because I left them in Vallejo.
This is going to be a LONG night of squinting/leaning in closer to read my screen and books.
UGH.
Labor of Love.
I guess that’s what you could call it.
Kind of freaks me out, to be honest. But at the same time, I can’t wait to see his reaction.
<3
A slice, or maybe 3 or 4 slices, of pizza is sounding really good right now.
Either that, or some Jack in the Crack tacos.
Ugh, working these damned 12am - 6am shifts turn me into a pig.
Well, more of a pig than I normally am.
This stupid ankle needs to heal so that I can work off all the extra weight that I’ve gained in the past month.
I'm sooo loving...
… this Harry Potter marathon that they’ve been having all day.
Favorite part so far (after re-watching them all) is definitely the battle in the Department of Mysteries. The smoke & magic is so incredible, and all I kept thinking in my head is what Justin told me about how people MAJOR in smoke & water effects like that.
Other favorite part is the battle between Dumbledore...
